Languages of Love

My friend Rakia bought me a book called the Different Languages of Love. It was a very good book, it was about the different ways that people love. It went in to detail about how everyone loves in their own way.

Typically when we think of someone loving and supporting us we think about having someone that we discuss our thoughts and dreams with. Someone that encourages us to keep on trying to achieve the things we want out of life. Or someone that helps us obtain these things by giving their input and sharing their thoughts and dreams. But, just because this is what our mind automatically goes to, doesn’t mean that these are the only ways to show love and support.

I am a full time mother, wife, student, worker, natural hair enthusiast and now blogger! My life is far from dull. I have a husband that loves me in spite of my many layers (working on the because of part) but he shows his support for my many ventures by making it possible for me to have enough time to explore my project of the day...whatever that may be. He does this by occupying the children when I’m doing school work, cooking for the kids and I so I don’t have to, helping out with housework etc. There was a time in our relationship that I didn’t understand that this was his way of loving me.. this is his personal language of love.

My point is, just because someone doesn’t love you the way you or society think they should, that does not mean that the love isn’t there. The way a person love is a part of their personal identity. The way they profess their love is a result of the imprint that life has left on them that enables them to show and receive love in a way that is fit for their life.

Today My Voices are Screaming: IT STARTS WITH YOU!! Evaluate the situation, recognize your blessings, accept the good, pray on the bad, enjoy life and allow people to love in their own way…you never know, your acceptance may open a new language of love for everyone involved.

I'm still a work in progress, but at least now im on the right path!

LOVE YALL!! Thanks for reading and supporting me

My Internal Battle

"Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew the right spirit in me."

　

Is a scripture from Psalms that comes to mind when I think about my life, how far I’ve come and where I’m headed.　Personally, this scripture signifies a cry for help for cleansing of the heart/mind… meaning to be purged of all evil thoughts, wrongdoings and past bad experiences. Renewing a right spirit means to gain a less judgmental, more positive personal outlook on life.

Lately, I’ve been finding myself in a battle against my natural being and my spiritual being.　When I say my natural being I’m referring to the person I’ve become as a result of the obstacles I have faced in life.　When I reference my spiritual being I’m referring to the person that I can be if I allow God to have dominion over my life.

"In order to fulfill your God ordained journey in life, you must release the familiar and enter the unfamiliar. You must leap out on faith and believe that he is real and he will see you through"

When I heard this I instantly thought of the feelings that I have been harboring internally.　The internal struggle of my natural being fighting to remain the strong, independent outspoken person I have become; and my spiritual being announcing it’s desire to leap out on faith and begin the journey that will lead to the divine destiny that God has ordained for me.

I texted 2 of my close friends and I expressed my internal struggle by sending　"God is really trying to prepare me for the next stage of my life and I keep fighting back because I’m scared." Their understanding of what I meant by next level was refreshing and allowed me to know that I was in the midst of people who shared my knowledge of the word and God’s calling on people’s lives.　Their assurance that I was not the only one that has dealt with this type of internal battle with natural versus spiritual was more than I could have hope for. Their responses were:

The next stage is "a scary thing, because we like to know in detail the entire process & God wants us to trust Him.　Sometimes the next level seems so big but God is bigger! God has a better plan for us than we can ever have for ourselves.　God’s plan for you will not involve losing yourself but it will involve finding yourself. Finding the you that he designed you to be" said Jovan. She expressed her views with such conviction that it was if her words found a way to entire not only into my mind but also into my heart.　I felt every word that she sent to me.

　

"Faith is believing with out seeing, trusting and knowing he won’t lead us down the wrong path…fear is natural" said Laurey. She probably didn’t realize it at the time, but that was exactly what I needed to hear.　The breakdown of faith is what I lost sight of.

　

Their words of encouragement were exactly what I needed. I now know that it is time for me to begin the journey to my divine destiny.　I feel that once I completely removed the anger, pain and disappointment from my heart and mind I will be able to easily live my life without this inward battle.　When I truly release the demons and disappointments of my past, I will be able to live "spiritually strong, knowledgably blessed and submissively loved" and all of these thing will be directed by God, which will alleviate my battle and bring me to a different level of awareness.